The Cum High

I've mentioned in several posts of mine before, but I've been paying more attention to this state. How it happens ?  am I imagining it ?

The last few weeks I've been letting the cum stay in my mouth for long times, resisting the reflex I've built up to chug and gulp when a cock starts unloading in my mouth.  The study has had me at the video booths long and often.  Excited!  Working on fat cocks, eager for cum.  I've been a little negligent about begging for it in my pussy like I was trained to do for all men.

Something is there for me.  in my head or not, I get a euphoria from spunk.   Holding in my mouth and smelling it longer has more effect.  Perhaps it is just another form of my obsession with cum.  I think there is a chemical in semen that sedates me, perhaps like a very mild roofie. My spine loosens some, like when I take poppers, and my cunt relaxes some more.  I've often had a guy fucking my pussy go from shallow fucking to balls-deep pounding when a guy unloads in my mouth.  Probably feeling my hole pop more open for his shaft.    I also have less track of time.   I also feel a bigger urge to be sluttier, to be exposed.  After eating loads of cum I prefer the booth door left open.  I let guys take pics with their phone.  I leave my skirt off when I walk the hallway.  I AM like this normally, but that calm sense that it's OK to be such a whore

Even now when I arrive for a booth duty session I can be a bit flirty, or coy, or nervous.  Even now, after hundreds of strangers in filthy places.  Once my mouth and throat have been painted with cum, and the high starts, I can't even fake nervousness to get a guy horny.  I have to go full-slut to earn my next fix.

I've also been wondering about sperm swimming back up my throat.  Programmed based on being deposited in a fertile pussy, to swim up that wet semen-soaked hole.  Or what those swimmers are up to when jizz ends up in my nose.